Today was one of those days where I felt like a bad mommy. Being 8 months pregnant with two insane 17 month old boys running circles around me is really tough. I am not sure if it is the pregnancy or the age the boys are at, but sometimes I feel like I am constantly correcting someone. Don't push, don't hit, get off the train table, don't kill mommy's vertical blinds, don't eat the dog. You know...the usual. Anyway it seems that lately it all goes downhill by Wednesday afternoon. Thursday and Friday I usually find myself so emotionally drained that I will burst into tears along with one of my sons infamous and long lasting tantrums.
So does this make me a bad mom? I want to be a stay at home mom so that my children have the best. I love being there for all the milestones but sometimes I just feel trapped. I miss work but couldn't imagine not being there with my son during the day. Part of me feels that maybe it is the hormones. Or perhaps this is just a really tough time in the boys' age. They are getting more independent and more demanding everyday.
Deep breath in and release....Thanks for listening to my rambles. I hope you all have a fantastic second half of the week!